When I was at the mall, I was talking, and some boys, probably Spanish, who seemed small and tall, sounded like they gave all in and said something that sounded like a bad word because I was enjoying conversation with my dad, who doesn't want me to plan things out neatly. Other people aren't helping my situation at home. Some people say things, and no one helps. I am left with what's right and wrong and knowing my needs are unmet. Later, I realize I "don't have" to do some things.
So, then I ate out with my dad, and he made me feel like I had to have the waitress stimulate me in my stomach and probably womb. Well, I had it coming and have forgotten about it. I was feeling it, and it did make me feel weird in a little way. It made my stomach pump for the first time like that, at least since I could ever remember since I lost it in 2005, thinking my life became a recorded experiment and that supposedly I had been suffering undue things, which I believe still and feel I have not received my reward. Another time, though, I felt my head pump in a good way, though I fear it will spin. It's just that my eye spun before for months, so maybe I'm done spinning or something, at least for now, here. :| I mean, it's hard to spin. I've been struggling.