Manners

I don't know.  I found that people said I was just being selfish.  I had reasons for doing each thing I did.  I guess I felt sparked up.  I should have stopped.  I dunno, maybe I was worried about what would happen if I didn't say anything.  I shouldn't take out my anger.  I still feel bad.

R E S P E C T

So, other people deserve so much respect, and I get treated like people who are mean all the time.

STOP

Stop shoving my dad at me!  ':0

Problem

I know that there are violent people from other areas acting like they are from L.A. and Florida.

Being Difficult

Helena Bonham Carter leaves clues and wants us to be impressed and won't go out and say what she wants.

Also, I don't believe in when I get upset about something that something else bad has to happen to me because lots of people lose their temper.

I'm upset.  I guess her having Russian Jewish merely puts her in line.  I don't know "what" she did with the traits she supposedly got from her mom...  There are rules.  She just breaks some, it seems, around people like Burton.

Problem

Why is everything such a big deal, the way people my age act?  You aren't fixing the problems.  Life is not getting more comfortable.

A Bad Yet Cozy Holiday at Home

Thanksgiving was neat.

I didn't watch the Macy's parade.

Sorry I got upset.  I guess it was just the holidays.  Shouldn't have gotten upset.

TV

I got a message about "not Ellen."

Problems

So, I've been feeling bad, lately.  Things come up in the dark of my privacy.  I guess I'll try to control it and feel better.  The exercise and healthy food should help.  I guess, next time, I need cold cuts and wheat bread and vegetables like lettuce, as well as maybe like honey mustard.  I have some Dancing With the Stars workout videos.  Some are dubbed exercise-based.  I also started working on another Jillian Michaels DVD. It's more routine-based.  I stopped because of my knees and I had done 2 workouts already online, for about 5-10 minutes each.

I don't know what's being squeezed out of me.  I'm not happy that this is happening.  There must be another way out.

...

Also, I've been watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and watching her online...  I'm thinking of watching "True Blood" or maybe "Ghost Adventures" again.  I miss "The Secret Circle."  I also need to watch Jimmy Fallon.  Blogging is something everyone should do.  I like the forums I find.  I need to find more.  I also have that little basketball hoop.  There must be other things I could do.

Hey, also, there's a small, hard pimple on my right pointer finger.  I also felt my eyes kinda cross as an idea, kinda like a crazy, disgusting, perverted idea of, unfortunately, what you think of a black person presenting something.  I've felt this since some time after starting to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" again.  This didn't happen before.  I think it's because of her audience.  Hey, now, my left finger tips felt gooey kinda and thick like I had short nails.  This shouldn't happen.  So, I recommend you behave and take care of yourself and this stuff shouldn't happen.  I guess it is good for older people and in certain ways for people born at certain times to deal with things that have come their way and that these things are supposedly unavoidable.  There must be some way to avoid this, but I know people also think we have it coming...

Pizza

I had the Domino's my dad elected to get me.  It's giving me that funny feeling, of that waitress, like in my stomach are.  I feel like I'm in a mental hospital and am tired from complaining online.

So, he got thinner pizza and the cheese bread I like and the lava cakes, which I didn't have, yet.  That's also been connected to other ideas...

Now, my stomach is bloated, even though I've been exercising.  Maybe, I shouldn't have had the pizza...

Problem

My dad and other people are doing things with him to send messages to me that are elaborate against other people who even suck up to them.

Problem

Leave me alone!

Problem

Stop playing around with me and broadcasting my life.  I'm not sure why this happened.  Guess it's not safe to post anywhere.

Problem

I just got the idea that things are supposedly all being set up intelligently around me to stimulate others.

Problem

Please leave me alone for how I say things.  Also, you've already ruined my life.

Problem

Why is life so lame since my interest in Ellen DeGeneres and moreover my dad with the n word thing.  Someone needs to put an end to him.

Problem

They're really in the process of fixing this.

Problem

Can you leave me alone?  I got the message that dirty Americans wish to eat away at people who want pure, full heritage from Europe.

Problem

Why is everything I do a bad message from someone I care about or who is nice, a good person, I don't interact with in person?

Problem

I got another message.  A threat.  I also got a message that associated something special to me, again.