I guess I'll just try not to say **** and nigger so freely. 8I
I can't stand the stress I've been put under, the medicine I took, the stay in the mental hospital..
I just don't think it's bad when you're playing online like this in private waiting for people to assist you, why I left it up. I'm really tired to figure out how to take down stuff when I'm already so winded and incapable of working in the world, even, though I'm quite able-bodied.
I'm wondering why I wasn't accepted as an actor, nor model. I can try again in a few months and at this one place. I just have a feeling I'm not ready. I hope I will continue to improve since I don't even work. I post online, on Blogger and IMDb. Other sites.
Well, I decided to change because I found I was programmed to like react violently to suggestions.
I wasn't really going crazy like a baby. I just keep hearing these noises in my room..
I probably should wait to audition again. I had some problems with my weight. Maybe I should fix that. Like sometimes I skip jogging and get fatter. Maybe I wasn't healthy.
Well, now, I'm feeling vibrations on my keyboard.
So, I keep having to pay for when I mess up. So, why don't people help me function better? I'm not meant to mess up so much. Hm, what made me mad? I just got upset at being picked at. I guess I just should have lay down. My mom came in to do laundry and I got up to turn on music. I don't have an MP3 Player.
Ow, the noise just disturbed me, was an insulting message..
So, I hope this never happens again to anyone else. The message is to live life simply and love and no harm will come. However, I feel people are doing the opposite, punishing you for things you did wrong.
I know people are telling me to feel that people are really stimulating when they come to conclusions. I think that bothered me. I think I was worried at a message that could turn into something, THEN I posted the bad stuff. You know, earlier I posted Johnny Depp came to me in a vision ideologically that he was spinning my future daughter in pain out of control four hours upon waking. I have the feeling he still is. What do you have to say about what this is? I also got a concrete message.
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So, lots you can go into. Maybe, I'll just put this out there, now...