Friday, November 30, 2012
Dream
Also, There were 2 little images of Ellen, like ads, running across the top and doing something special. In the 2nd, I think she came on squatting.
Then, I came to the main page, and I watched her and it felt like she was saluting or greeting me. It's a fuzzy memory.
Then, I came to the main page, and I watched her and it felt like she was saluting or greeting me. It's a fuzzy memory.
Dream
So, I was with some people. The big tall guy put his arm around me. First I think I hugged the big, tall Spanish lady. I got money to get snacks from a machine I was family with. There were 2 places of machines. So, the lady said I learned something bad from the man, or that the adopted kids of the family did, to put their arm around her. There were like 3 or 4 adopted kids in the family lyint around. Also, set up, was like an alarm in my house and it was July 4th, and there was a steeple on the top and there was a little cute jingle for about 3 seconds and a festival of lights played. My friend had the same alarm, but I didn't post it on the internet in e-mail because no longer was I safe. I think before I was holding the hand of the tall, Spanish lady. Some other things happened. The world was going through what made sense and what didn't and were sorry for me. There were some more well-to-do kids playing on a floor of lights but not very fancy lights. I passed by.
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Mad at the World
Okay, now, I'm really mad at the world.
I said something on my blog, and my aunt was really nice to me. So was my brother, since I watched Ellen DeGeneres her 9th season.
So, anyway, my aunt was really nice, and it was really neat. However, we lost the streak and she can't get back. I think she doesn't want to see my face. I was just talking, maybe I sent it to her. So, now, I feel haunted by her.
I've also had periods where I can jog or walk a lot but now don't feel like it. I went a week on hamburgers that weren't very good. I was supposed to go shopping or ask for food but didn't know. I just don't feel comfortable going to the grocery.
What do you think of people who really don't make sense? I hate people mixed with like dark and light.
I'm not sure if I'm even on a topic.
I got the feeling Ellen DeGeneres is partial to the younger members of a family, like it's a dream. However, it's the parents's job. I was let off without much a reputation but reveled in helping my brother at school in Pre-K. I wanted to be a teacher of whatever grade he was in but probably had other desires.
I'm guessing Ellen thinks that copying what someone else does makes her fit in, but it seems she's forced to live in her environment. I guess I'm wondering if she's cutting herself off from the world or trying to like control it.
It seems anyone who is nice to me who is really attractive gets in trouble.
I said something on my blog, and my aunt was really nice to me. So was my brother, since I watched Ellen DeGeneres her 9th season.
So, anyway, my aunt was really nice, and it was really neat. However, we lost the streak and she can't get back. I think she doesn't want to see my face. I was just talking, maybe I sent it to her. So, now, I feel haunted by her.
I've also had periods where I can jog or walk a lot but now don't feel like it. I went a week on hamburgers that weren't very good. I was supposed to go shopping or ask for food but didn't know. I just don't feel comfortable going to the grocery.
What do you think of people who really don't make sense? I hate people mixed with like dark and light.
I'm not sure if I'm even on a topic.
I got the feeling Ellen DeGeneres is partial to the younger members of a family, like it's a dream. However, it's the parents's job. I was let off without much a reputation but reveled in helping my brother at school in Pre-K. I wanted to be a teacher of whatever grade he was in but probably had other desires.
I'm guessing Ellen thinks that copying what someone else does makes her fit in, but it seems she's forced to live in her environment. I guess I'm wondering if she's cutting herself off from the world or trying to like control it.
It seems anyone who is nice to me who is really attractive gets in trouble.
R E S P E C T
I wish people would be civil to me. If they have a problem, they should not go behind my back and then be mean to me and shock me, as though I have reason to be attacked and feel guilty and different from everyone else. They have a problem with a mistake I supposedly made not with something I can change like a habit. They are totally like killing me, just because I'm mixed race.
People From Where I'm From
When I lived in the nation's oldest continuing city in Northeastern Florida near a major city, most people seemed to live on the island. We lived close to downtown, well in downtown, in a small, old house.
2TheEllenShow
Not too too long after coming home from college, well maybe a year and a 1|2, a guy from Texas called me from MySpace, I think. Already, he was preaching hatred at me. I wasn't even at IMDb, yet, nor probably any other forum, other than on MySpace and Facebook. So, I didn't get on until ... Hm. 200 ... 7. :) I probably shouldn't have given out my location nor posted pictures of me in weird settings. I really wanted to get a portrait for my profile picture. Anyway, I talked to this guy a long time. Some other guy, I think a guy from New Zealand, a Kiwi, called me, who moved to Florida. I think Western Florida but not Southwestern Florida. He was a year younger and kept calling me, was a little fat. IMed me sometimes. No one really IMs me. I put my IM on the police forum. When I was at Eurasian Nation, they kicked me out and tried to talk to me about it on IM. I was kicked out of so many places. I didn't really do anything. They just said like stuff like I was weird or I got mad at people who were pointedly insulting me, old members, which happened on the old Eurasian Nation, I know.
Manners
I don't know. I found that people said I was just being selfish. I had reasons for doing each thing I did. I guess I felt sparked up. I should have stopped. I dunno, maybe I was worried about what would happen if I didn't say anything. I shouldn't take out my anger. I still feel bad.
R E S P E C T
So, other people deserve so much respect, and I get treated like people who are mean all the time.
Showered
I just took a shower but still don't feel perfectly sanitary.
I painted my nails and then had to poo and managed to do it.
I painted my nails and then had to poo and managed to do it.
Just Had a Relatively Big Breakfast
2 Glasses of OJ
GRITS - Plain - 2 1|2 Cups of Water and Grits
Maple Bacon not very heated stuck together
2 Slices of French Toast & Syrup
2 Fried Eggs with Probably Somewhat Runny Yellows
What else? Some of an apple
GRITS - Plain - 2 1|2 Cups of Water and Grits
Maple Bacon not very heated stuck together
2 Slices of French Toast & Syrup
2 Fried Eggs with Probably Somewhat Runny Yellows
What else? Some of an apple
2TheEllenShow
You know it's funny I don't remember how things were in the New Orleans area, though I assume they are the same. This kinda woke me up when they said, "Hey, sexy lady!" It reminded me of all the crazy things they do at martial arts or that martial arts schools must do, in general.
That was pretty funny, kept waking me up. Not sure what's going on.
Whenever I move, I'm totally knocked out. I did more back to Florida and have visited Saint Augustine, the oldest continuing city in the U.S. However, when I go to Fort Lauderdale, where my aunts used to both live and one still lives there, it's not the same. It's like I had a period of my life where I wasn't as European, since going up to see my grandma, though that's the one baby picture I have up. I was dressed in attractive colors.
I just don't understand why I was always instilled with a sense of not deserving respect|what I want. My brother also had Chinese-influenced features that seemed like sorta rubbed in.
It's funny I looked more Asian than anything but not in a squinty way, just like a plastered look when I was younger but oily or something. Not too much like some people.
That was pretty funny, kept waking me up. Not sure what's going on.
Whenever I move, I'm totally knocked out. I did more back to Florida and have visited Saint Augustine, the oldest continuing city in the U.S. However, when I go to Fort Lauderdale, where my aunts used to both live and one still lives there, it's not the same. It's like I had a period of my life where I wasn't as European, since going up to see my grandma, though that's the one baby picture I have up. I was dressed in attractive colors.
I just don't understand why I was always instilled with a sense of not deserving respect|what I want. My brother also had Chinese-influenced features that seemed like sorta rubbed in.
It's funny I looked more Asian than anything but not in a squinty way, just like a plastered look when I was younger but oily or something. Not too much like some people.
2TheEllenShow
That just made me think of people who had an Asian mom. I see all these Eurasian people who look so Asian. I think it was a mix of people with Asian moms or dads, but I am not sure. Many look totally Asian and very Asian, more than Asians. Some of them have kind of a box figure with a lot of tight things going on in their body and like really squinty eyes and dead skin, very complex and unpleasurable in a human|white way that you used to think of. I'm not sure how these people are doing today, probably not feeling a lot. Full Asians feel better.
I know most people are interested in Asian stuff, but I feel my mom put a guard on me because she's Chinese Indonesian from maybe 600 years ago. However, I don't really care about Asian stuff... Who would? So, during Katrina, everyone went to Texas and there was this girl there with straight white, probably highlighted or bleached hair. She was reclining on a bench saying with mouth like dropping wide open, "go to the store." Well, it was really surprising and stimulating, but I guess you'd expect it from her. Wait, why did I say that, did I forget to type something?
So, anyway, here's this video of a Japanese dance I was supposed to participate in. There's another video out there somewhere of a girl I heard singing in New Orleans, wait, from Louisiana, in Mississippi, where she got fatter like her parents. She was singing "The Ash Grove," but here she was doing a Japanese solo with some girls. So, you'll notice the girl in the back of the first video with white hair. I was actually thinner than her, but I looked a lot like her. A lot of people were seeming different. It reminds me of Youth Group when we went to pick berries and people were complaining, younger people, and they all seemed mad at me for reveling in it for my reputation. What actually happened was they were irritating the leader and ruining it, but then it seemed they would stop.
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I know most people are interested in Asian stuff, but I feel my mom put a guard on me because she's Chinese Indonesian from maybe 600 years ago. However, I don't really care about Asian stuff... Who would? So, during Katrina, everyone went to Texas and there was this girl there with straight white, probably highlighted or bleached hair. She was reclining on a bench saying with mouth like dropping wide open, "go to the store." Well, it was really surprising and stimulating, but I guess you'd expect it from her. Wait, why did I say that, did I forget to type something?
So, anyway, here's this video of a Japanese dance I was supposed to participate in. There's another video out there somewhere of a girl I heard singing in New Orleans, wait, from Louisiana, in Mississippi, where she got fatter like her parents. She was singing "The Ash Grove," but here she was doing a Japanese solo with some girls. So, you'll notice the girl in the back of the first video with white hair. I was actually thinner than her, but I looked a lot like her. A lot of people were seeming different. It reminds me of Youth Group when we went to pick berries and people were complaining, younger people, and they all seemed mad at me for reveling in it for my reputation. What actually happened was they were irritating the leader and ruining it, but then it seemed they would stop.
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Sweet Dream
So, no, it wasn't about my dad and mom.
Anyway, I was locked in this school that was kinda like a mall. There were all these people there, with me... You get the picture.
Something made my head warble, like go back and forth. So, then, there was this person there who looked kinda big set who was inspired by Ellen DeGeneres just because. So, this "person" really who may have been made up picked up me and for some reason was rubbing my back under my bust. Then sorta my head and my butt, kinda stimulating me like at my crotch or from my butt. I sorta imagined this for awhile.
The dream was rather interesting, otherwise, and rather satisfying, but it was interesting to imagine something of that nature.
So, I was at a school and I was going into class. I don't remember, now! That was before.
I just sprayed my pillow with Febreze.
Anyway, I was locked in this school that was kinda like a mall. There were all these people there, with me... You get the picture.
Something made my head warble, like go back and forth. So, then, there was this person there who looked kinda big set who was inspired by Ellen DeGeneres just because. So, this "person" really who may have been made up picked up me and for some reason was rubbing my back under my bust. Then sorta my head and my butt, kinda stimulating me like at my crotch or from my butt. I sorta imagined this for awhile.
The dream was rather interesting, otherwise, and rather satisfying, but it was interesting to imagine something of that nature.
So, I was at a school and I was going into class. I don't remember, now! That was before.
I just sprayed my pillow with Febreze.
Feeling More Physical Presence
I feel my legs more, like at my crotch and also for some reason my head and face.
STOP
I'm getting suggesting messages and supposed things connected to my dad that are special and these things won't stop and I want it all written down for the world to pick at.
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Everything should be o kay! '={
So, if you aren't a racist Italian minor-ethnic European etc. then anything you do and think must be okay.
TV
I just watched some of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" from yesterday, which I watched yesterday, except missed the beginning a few minutes fixing my TV from the chord coming lose moving the lamp I have borrowed back.
Felt a Stoppage When Cursing
The curse words surged in when I woke up because I was so worried, I went zany, but they didn't quite reach the top of my brain. There was nothing there. Of course, I didn't want to, but I did quite a bit and have been having quite a fascination with one in a funny way. I'm not cursing now but probably will later. I hope bad things stop happening.
Suggestions in the World
What do you think of all the suggestions we get in the world as fans of Tim Burton or since he's been about from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and working on Sweeney Todd?
Speaking to Me
Why are people acting like it isn't okay to speak to me? I mean, who speaks to me inappropriately?
"Pop ular" Majors
My 2nd year of college, the Philosophy and Physics departments encouraged us to become majors. The Physics teacher said we would and made us believe he taught Einstein. He was kinda fit and not fat. The Philosophy teacher I had my 1st year 2nd semester encouraged us to be minors. I attended a seminar, to accept new professors my 2nd year. I also got extra credit in Religion going to the Jewish "church" nextdoor. I didn't understand any of the Religion and Philosophy, but I did well in the Philosophy class but no Religion classes, which is a popular major nowaday. :)
10 Side Sit-Ups on Each Side *-oo8
I've only been doing 5 or 3. Maybe about 3 or 4 times recently but also some other times fairly recently...
Being Taken Care Of
When I went to the Catholic school I was told to Audit Chemistry II. I could have taken Art III with another girl who transferred before me instead of Calculus APH. My English teacher told me I was a good writer, but I only got a 3 on the AP test, to be expected. She was married to a Religion teacher who did choir, where I accompanied. We had masses in the gym maybe once a month. I drove to practice. I drove out about every night. Monday, band, which was just made that year, and my college piano teacher when I was a piano major was related to the band teacher, who had a daughter in the band who was a freshman. The girls from my ballet school transferred after we left and became friends. They all had blonde hair, the people they made friends with, I think, primarily. The band teacher's daughter had crimped hair. Just for the f.y.i. on what's on my mind right now. Once, I also lost my way on the way to band, 1 1|2 hours, which is a long time, not sure how I stood it.
So, when I went to school up north, during a hurricane, they withdrew me when I stopped attending class after something happened to me kinda serious the day before the history test, which I could not take, just couldn't get into it.
The Jesuit school in New Orleans I went to gave me the withdrawals later. If I take the classes here, I can get grade forgiveness, at the regular community college, though I had to ask.
So, when I took Chemistry in college my 3rd year, the lab was easy. I struggled with an Asian teacher in Biology, a lady. Physics lab was so cool! I was a Chemistry Pre-Med major for Psychiatry. So, I signed up for Chemistry II in high school since it fit my schedule and I changed schools. They didn't have it when I went to school the year before, needed 1 more person.
So, when I went to school up north, during a hurricane, they withdrew me when I stopped attending class after something happened to me kinda serious the day before the history test, which I could not take, just couldn't get into it.
The Jesuit school in New Orleans I went to gave me the withdrawals later. If I take the classes here, I can get grade forgiveness, at the regular community college, though I had to ask.
So, when I took Chemistry in college my 3rd year, the lab was easy. I struggled with an Asian teacher in Biology, a lady. Physics lab was so cool! I was a Chemistry Pre-Med major for Psychiatry. So, I signed up for Chemistry II in high school since it fit my schedule and I changed schools. They didn't have it when I went to school the year before, needed 1 more person.
Points of Interest About Going to School...
Was school for you a fight on if the teachers should have to teach you?
Noticed Something
I noticed something. Ellen DeGeneres has a more high reputation now, in my opinion.
She used to act like she wasn't that good. Then, she admitted she was.
She used to act like she wasn't that good. Then, she admitted she was.
Succeeding in School
I think my dad wanted me in a Catholic school. There was a private, non-Catholic school that was supposed to be good. The other Catholic school was full.
Succeeding in School
So, when I came into American History APG, the teacher said like don't take the course unless you're taking the AP test. Well, I wasn't sure if I would. I just was taking the class to be smart and because it was Gifted. That just confused me. I didn't really calculate anything. They did have Honors. I was lucky to get in Gifted, even though I was the Valedictorian in junior high, though I had moved my 2nd year of junior high.
Succeeding in School
Okay, I really don't understand this. I just realized a boy in American History AP is related to my English teacher. He didn't fail American History. Neither did the girl from the public school. I just don't think I ever had to do that much reading. I couldn't do it in college, neither.
Worshipping Certain People
Tim Burton likes Helena Bonham Carter, but she is the opposite of the people he says are better than everyone else. He really puts off people. I mean, before people were on a rapport, but now we're just noticing how popular we are. Why am I popular for suffering?
Race in Places
Do you know anyone in America who is not
(A) a little|part Native American
(B) has a technically Jewish-traced last name
(C) a minor European country nor like Italian nor part Greek
(A) a little|part Native American
(B) has a technically Jewish-traced last name
(C) a minor European country nor like Italian nor part Greek
Just Ate Awhile Ago
White Rice & Green Curry from a Thai Restaurant my parents know about.
I baked some brownies, a thin layer with icing, chocolate icing. What else? Ah, then I had a good portion of leftover old beef I heated up on the stove and some old organic squash I cooked yesterday, heated on the stove.
So, I'm gonna have some I think berry or strawberry yogurt after I find out what cardio means and get a workout DVD.
I baked some brownies, a thin layer with icing, chocolate icing. What else? Ah, then I had a good portion of leftover old beef I heated up on the stove and some old organic squash I cooked yesterday, heated on the stove.
So, I'm gonna have some I think berry or strawberry yogurt after I find out what cardio means and get a workout DVD.
Identifying With Others Culturally
I wanted to move to L.A., like Tim Burton. I mean, he has dark hair and is up for a worthy cause. It seems his point is to say dark hair is bad and he has it for a reason and he's just there to advertise Helena Bonham Carter and his daughter.
I guess living in the New Orleans area sorta gave me an interesting experience. I struggle to know about my fate and some of my decisions. It was like I wasn't supposed to go to college after being such a good and rather active student. I've always been considered well-behaved and hard-working, though my schools weren't incredibly hard nor like convenient. Like, we had busywork and boring work, I'd say. Well, it wasn't as bad as you'd imagine, but in a way it was that caliber. The 2 states I am from have the worst schools in the nation, so it's interesting culturally|socially, just not in the area I'm from exactly. I don't really know "what" people are busy doing in school.
Well, I don't know who I'm interested in. A lot of stars have fallen to the graces of Johnny Depp. I'm sure there are a lot of cute guys out in the world.
Do you think Ellen DeGeneres is just trying to be popular? I don't know what the big fuss is. Ever since I did badly in college because I thought it was an experiment, my life, I've been beat a lot. Then, the n word thing happened, and my options in the world somehow closed. It happened overnight. Well, she has blonde hair. She isn't really shy. I don't know why people get mixed emotions about me. Would you say she's bold around people her age? I don't know why I've been taken out of "the" picture. I was treated differently at different times and especially after going to the mental hospital at 16. So, people are just inappropriately shoving me into other people's faces, making fun of me, like I'm an animal and not a human being, anymore. I think it's because of that thing when I was 11, the not writing my cousin, the thinking perverted thoughts, not feeling as good when my brother was born, and maybe feeling racism as a young child, but like in secret and never openly discussed except when the time came and it was something that claimed they were in their place with me. So, I can't hide. The reason I keep up with this stuff is because it's good to. People are trying to play with me and tell me different things to do. I mean, Tim Burton isn't that famous, and Ellen DeGeneres isn't that discussed. You could be the 1st big famous person of the times. I know I was just denied, but I'm not sure how I'd go nor if I'd ruin things, at all, hopefully not too much, if I became a model or something or got in some movies, maybe even some more major roles, like you know at least speaking roles that come back, though it'd be nice to be well-respected as a participant in the business if you're going to be in it and want to perform in things like what they have in movies and for world access. It would be nice to file it online. Being featured to the world in a movie would be a fun thing to have happen, as well... So, a long time ago, I guess I would have discovered more under the radar artists|entertainers and could have posted about it online since I was a teen. I mean, I've seen a lot of movies, but not much is happening, anymore, since Johnny Depp. I mean, people think "that's it."
I guess living in the New Orleans area sorta gave me an interesting experience. I struggle to know about my fate and some of my decisions. It was like I wasn't supposed to go to college after being such a good and rather active student. I've always been considered well-behaved and hard-working, though my schools weren't incredibly hard nor like convenient. Like, we had busywork and boring work, I'd say. Well, it wasn't as bad as you'd imagine, but in a way it was that caliber. The 2 states I am from have the worst schools in the nation, so it's interesting culturally|socially, just not in the area I'm from exactly. I don't really know "what" people are busy doing in school.
Well, I don't know who I'm interested in. A lot of stars have fallen to the graces of Johnny Depp. I'm sure there are a lot of cute guys out in the world.
Do you think Ellen DeGeneres is just trying to be popular? I don't know what the big fuss is. Ever since I did badly in college because I thought it was an experiment, my life, I've been beat a lot. Then, the n word thing happened, and my options in the world somehow closed. It happened overnight. Well, she has blonde hair. She isn't really shy. I don't know why people get mixed emotions about me. Would you say she's bold around people her age? I don't know why I've been taken out of "the" picture. I was treated differently at different times and especially after going to the mental hospital at 16. So, people are just inappropriately shoving me into other people's faces, making fun of me, like I'm an animal and not a human being, anymore. I think it's because of that thing when I was 11, the not writing my cousin, the thinking perverted thoughts, not feeling as good when my brother was born, and maybe feeling racism as a young child, but like in secret and never openly discussed except when the time came and it was something that claimed they were in their place with me. So, I can't hide. The reason I keep up with this stuff is because it's good to. People are trying to play with me and tell me different things to do. I mean, Tim Burton isn't that famous, and Ellen DeGeneres isn't that discussed. You could be the 1st big famous person of the times. I know I was just denied, but I'm not sure how I'd go nor if I'd ruin things, at all, hopefully not too much, if I became a model or something or got in some movies, maybe even some more major roles, like you know at least speaking roles that come back, though it'd be nice to be well-respected as a participant in the business if you're going to be in it and want to perform in things like what they have in movies and for world access. It would be nice to file it online. Being featured to the world in a movie would be a fun thing to have happen, as well... So, a long time ago, I guess I would have discovered more under the radar artists|entertainers and could have posted about it online since I was a teen. I mean, I've seen a lot of movies, but not much is happening, anymore, since Johnny Depp. I mean, people think "that's it."
Problem
What is Tim Burton's problem? He doesn't seem to let things go. He also doesn't solve them right.
Problem
Why should we care about Tim Burton's daughter? Why is it always about how bad I am? I saw her mom want me to call her the n word.
Also, don't get me caught up in others's flaws. Oh, but it's not a flaw, just a difference you'll have to accept with other people. You don't seem to force the same things on everyone. I think I would have succeeded given a fair opportunity.
Also, don't get me caught up in others's flaws. Oh, but it's not a flaw, just a difference you'll have to accept with other people. You don't seem to force the same things on everyone. I think I would have succeeded given a fair opportunity.
Something Nice
I can be a friend for Ellen. She's from the New Orleans area and L.A. I got a weird connection. I also can connect to Britney Spears.
Problem
My aunt gave me the sheet music to songs I learned my 1st lesson in advance. I didn't feel like talking to the piano teacher out of turn. I used to be a good memorizer but became tired of it.
Problem
I couldn't remember to write my cousin because she was younger and used neat stationary. I don't know how old I was. I thought I was a young kid but not very young.
So, I stopped gymnastics to look for a ballet school when we moved, but we couldn't find any. My mom said gymnastics was too expensive but wanted me to do it a year later.
She said I had to do an activity, but I was happy. I went to a special school for art and changed to piano. We moved, and I got a piano and became disinterested.
So, I stopped gymnastics to look for a ballet school when we moved, but we couldn't find any. My mom said gymnastics was too expensive but wanted me to do it a year later.
She said I had to do an activity, but I was happy. I went to a special school for art and changed to piano. We moved, and I got a piano and became disinterested.
Problem
So, I did poorly in school after Johnny Depp, but it's the teacher's fault and the school's fault I didn't know I could|should withdraw.
People like him promise to be there for you, but then you find they make you get closer to your family when it makes you uncomfortable. My relationship with my mom is different, but my relationship with my dad has gotten too private, or like personal.
People like him promise to be there for you, but then you find they make you get closer to your family when it makes you uncomfortable. My relationship with my mom is different, but my relationship with my dad has gotten too private, or like personal.
Problem
I'm getting more interactions with my dad I don't like since Johnny Depp, Tim Burton, and Ellen DeGeneres.
Problem
The problems just keep coming.
So, what do you think of having a dad like Tim Burton saying he made a sacrifice to be as nice as Helena Bonham Carter? Isn't that what most people would say? Huh? Huh? Or, what? Saying that we have to worship him for being with her? That his kid is like special.
Well, I also got wind that Lily Rose has "heritage" in "the" South. I guess anyone from Florida is automatically considered out of the picture.
Wow, just get all the glitz and glam. Whoops, did you slip?
May as well go out of the U.S., to where? Europe is not that far south.
So, what do you think of having a dad like Tim Burton saying he made a sacrifice to be as nice as Helena Bonham Carter? Isn't that what most people would say? Huh? Huh? Or, what? Saying that we have to worship him for being with her? That his kid is like special.
Well, I also got wind that Lily Rose has "heritage" in "the" South. I guess anyone from Florida is automatically considered out of the picture.
Wow, just get all the glitz and glam. Whoops, did you slip?
May as well go out of the U.S., to where? Europe is not that far south.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Problem
I went to bed resolved not to say certain words, but 2 bad words, well 3, came to my mind. I was resolved one was a joke, but only I can't joke around and that makes me really mad and I won't accept it. I don't like to curse, neither. I was really so mad, I couldn't stand it. I mean, he just has to say something, huh? It bothered me, though, and it's from watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and before following Tim Burton, etc.
STOP
I got some messages from my dad I didn't like.
I feel I've lost my connection with him. I was joking around before about something, but I guess people weren't good enough for it. I'm not sure why all this is happening. I explained this is unnecessary.
I feel I've lost my connection with him. I was joking around before about something, but I guess people weren't good enough for it. I'm not sure why all this is happening. I explained this is unnecessary.
Dream
I saw a person who put Halloween song out before Halloween. How, she had something else set up, like for Christmas. I talked to her with someone I was with. She had dark, smooth hair and light skin, was a little plump, a little tall. I was at home, and my mom left. I was in a bathroom of theirs and there were 2 computers, I think playing classical music that was more exciting with singing. I was trying to get it to stop. I did eventually. I was making out something for someone. That girl. A frog bookmark with googly eyes.
YOU DIDN'T FIX IT
Look, people, I didn't say nigger or anything in that post. Oops, you help people who are mean.
2TheEllenShow
So, nice show. You seem to be doing well. I'm having a hard time delving into your|the fans..
So, I had a bad day, but I just noticed you were lonely and thought I'd post a reaction to your show, in general. Hm, why did I have a bad day? Well, I went to the mental hospital, and suddenly everyone knew I called someone the n word (the word nigger..) However, I did bad after that happened, as well. I kept feeling disturbed for failing in college but not on purpose, at least not pointedly. I thought my life was an experiment and people stopped treating me the same and I felt different. I was told to expect a great experience. So, the world was fake. At least my experience. More to say, but I'm too tired. I mean, it was like I couldn't have been happy.
Well, with that, I'll go, go to bed, I will.. :?
So, I had a bad day, but I just noticed you were lonely and thought I'd post a reaction to your show, in general. Hm, why did I have a bad day? Well, I went to the mental hospital, and suddenly everyone knew I called someone the n word (the word nigger..) However, I did bad after that happened, as well. I kept feeling disturbed for failing in college but not on purpose, at least not pointedly. I thought my life was an experiment and people stopped treating me the same and I felt different. I was told to expect a great experience. So, the world was fake. At least my experience. More to say, but I'm too tired. I mean, it was like I couldn't have been happy.
Well, with that, I'll go, go to bed, I will.. :?
Problem
Now, I have another problem. I have lots of problems of people thinking they're smart but mean to me. Then, things happen in private, the noises I hear and the security words.
Why are we making more problems, for me? I didn't say hey come talk to me. Why are people so mean to me? Why didn't anything work out?
All I know is that I get treated badly for being nice.
Why are we making more problems, for me? I didn't say hey come talk to me. Why are people so mean to me? Why didn't anything work out?
All I know is that I get treated badly for being nice.
Problem
What do you think of how all the good people are closing up to the public because of the n word thing, which was caused by other things? Just forget it and move onto other people, which is like no one? Well, what do you think, though, surely it matters? They come up with something else when something happens. I'm not gonna take pretend logic. I really disagree. See, there's always something. What was really different, this time? I left up the dangerous part because I need help. I keep being treated like I'm someone else.
Problem
Why can't I just be comfortable? I know I shouldn't be solving problems, now, but I was told to.
Turning Over a New Leaf
I guess I'll just try not to say **** and nigger so freely. 8I
I can't stand the stress I've been put under, the medicine I took, the stay in the mental hospital..
I just don't think it's bad when you're playing online like this in private waiting for people to assist you, why I left it up. I'm really tired to figure out how to take down stuff when I'm already so winded and incapable of working in the world, even, though I'm quite able-bodied.
I'm wondering why I wasn't accepted as an actor, nor model. I can try again in a few months and at this one place. I just have a feeling I'm not ready. I hope I will continue to improve since I don't even work. I post online, on Blogger and IMDb. Other sites.
Well, I decided to change because I found I was programmed to like react violently to suggestions.
I wasn't really going crazy like a baby. I just keep hearing these noises in my room..
I probably should wait to audition again. I had some problems with my weight. Maybe I should fix that. Like sometimes I skip jogging and get fatter. Maybe I wasn't healthy.
Well, now, I'm feeling vibrations on my keyboard.
So, I keep having to pay for when I mess up. So, why don't people help me function better? I'm not meant to mess up so much. Hm, what made me mad? I just got upset at being picked at. I guess I just should have lay down. My mom came in to do laundry and I got up to turn on music. I don't have an MP3 Player.
Ow, the noise just disturbed me, was an insulting message..
So, I hope this never happens again to anyone else. The message is to live life simply and love and no harm will come. However, I feel people are doing the opposite, punishing you for things you did wrong.
I know people are telling me to feel that people are really stimulating when they come to conclusions. I think that bothered me. I think I was worried at a message that could turn into something, THEN I posted the bad stuff. You know, earlier I posted Johnny Depp came to me in a vision ideologically that he was spinning my future daughter in pain out of control four hours upon waking. I have the feeling he still is. What do you have to say about what this is? I also got a concrete message.
...
So, lots you can go into. Maybe, I'll just put this out there, now...
I can't stand the stress I've been put under, the medicine I took, the stay in the mental hospital..
I just don't think it's bad when you're playing online like this in private waiting for people to assist you, why I left it up. I'm really tired to figure out how to take down stuff when I'm already so winded and incapable of working in the world, even, though I'm quite able-bodied.
I'm wondering why I wasn't accepted as an actor, nor model. I can try again in a few months and at this one place. I just have a feeling I'm not ready. I hope I will continue to improve since I don't even work. I post online, on Blogger and IMDb. Other sites.
Well, I decided to change because I found I was programmed to like react violently to suggestions.
I wasn't really going crazy like a baby. I just keep hearing these noises in my room..
I probably should wait to audition again. I had some problems with my weight. Maybe I should fix that. Like sometimes I skip jogging and get fatter. Maybe I wasn't healthy.
Well, now, I'm feeling vibrations on my keyboard.
So, I keep having to pay for when I mess up. So, why don't people help me function better? I'm not meant to mess up so much. Hm, what made me mad? I just got upset at being picked at. I guess I just should have lay down. My mom came in to do laundry and I got up to turn on music. I don't have an MP3 Player.
Ow, the noise just disturbed me, was an insulting message..
So, I hope this never happens again to anyone else. The message is to live life simply and love and no harm will come. However, I feel people are doing the opposite, punishing you for things you did wrong.
I know people are telling me to feel that people are really stimulating when they come to conclusions. I think that bothered me. I think I was worried at a message that could turn into something, THEN I posted the bad stuff. You know, earlier I posted Johnny Depp came to me in a vision ideologically that he was spinning my future daughter in pain out of control four hours upon waking. I have the feeling he still is. What do you have to say about what this is? I also got a concrete message.
...
So, lots you can go into. Maybe, I'll just put this out there, now...
STOP
NOW, I CAN'T SEE POSTS TO ELLEN ON TWITTER! There aren't many at the moment, and mine aren't showing up. Does this happen all the time?
#ClassicJokeTuesday
Why did the teen cross the road? To get to the other ride.
Why did the teen spill her orange juice? It was like spilling the beans.
Why did the teen go to the bathroom? For a groom.
Why did the teen go to school? So she wouldn't die like a foo'.
Why wasn't the teen cool? Because she wasn't in the poo'.
Why was the teen's hair in curls? Because she was no angel.
Why was the teen's hair naturally curly? She had sense of rythem.
Why did the teen draw? To see her reflection.
Why did the child live in a sand castle? Because she was already on the beach.
Why did the child hold a hot dog? Because she was too cool.
Where did the teen go to school in junior high? In prism bars.
What was the teen's 1st date? August of 08
What was the teen's secret wish? El-a-tion!
Who was the teen's favorite person? El-le-en!
What did the teen really want to do? Have a fix with her *real* friend.
What was the teen's favorite dream? The un-scene, that is, a foreboding of what wasn't yet to come.
Who did the teen meet? A real loafer.
What did the teen say? Come on over!
How old was the teen? Old enough to count on you.
What did the teen say to Tim? I like him!
...
I guess I got mad today. I liked doing this, but let's see if I can think of some different jokes, for now.
...
So, a teenager walks into a bar room and sees Ellen and Tim. What does she do? She fleas!
So, a teenager goes to school and decides on an elective. What is it? Something political.
A tween goes to work for 2 hours a day. What does she say? You're all gonna pay!
The tween has a blog. What does she type? Directions to her "home" room.
A tween stays at an inn. What does she eat? Something that swims.
A tween goes to her hotel room. What does she do, first|then? Makes herself at home.
A tween goes to Disney World. What is her favorite thing? The ride at Animal Kingdom.
A tween goes to the Magic Kingdom and enters the Tikki Tikki Tikki Tikki Tikki Room. It's like a parade of light!
A tween goes on a roller coaster. She shuts her eyes and falls asweep.
A tween walks in the snow in December. She only wishes she weren't really in a lake... At least it's not fake. Oh well, next year, there'll be a remake. Even a cake. A piece you can take..
A tween reflects on herself. She realizes she's only a figment of the imagination.
A tween goes to Paris. She gets some ice cream. She slurps it up.
A tween goes swimming. She reaches for what's to come.
Why did the teen spill her orange juice? It was like spilling the beans.
Why did the teen go to the bathroom? For a groom.
Why did the teen go to school? So she wouldn't die like a foo'.
Why wasn't the teen cool? Because she wasn't in the poo'.
Why was the teen's hair in curls? Because she was no angel.
Why was the teen's hair naturally curly? She had sense of rythem.
Why did the teen draw? To see her reflection.
Why did the child live in a sand castle? Because she was already on the beach.
Why did the child hold a hot dog? Because she was too cool.
Where did the teen go to school in junior high? In prism bars.
What was the teen's 1st date? August of 08
What was the teen's secret wish? El-a-tion!
Who was the teen's favorite person? El-le-en!
What did the teen really want to do? Have a fix with her *real* friend.
What was the teen's favorite dream? The un-scene, that is, a foreboding of what wasn't yet to come.
Who did the teen meet? A real loafer.
What did the teen say? Come on over!
How old was the teen? Old enough to count on you.
What did the teen say to Tim? I like him!
...
I guess I got mad today. I liked doing this, but let's see if I can think of some different jokes, for now.
...
So, a teenager walks into a bar room and sees Ellen and Tim. What does she do? She fleas!
So, a teenager goes to school and decides on an elective. What is it? Something political.
A tween goes to work for 2 hours a day. What does she say? You're all gonna pay!
The tween has a blog. What does she type? Directions to her "home" room.
A tween stays at an inn. What does she eat? Something that swims.
A tween goes to her hotel room. What does she do, first|then? Makes herself at home.
A tween goes to Disney World. What is her favorite thing? The ride at Animal Kingdom.
A tween goes to the Magic Kingdom and enters the Tikki Tikki Tikki Tikki Tikki Room. It's like a parade of light!
A tween goes on a roller coaster. She shuts her eyes and falls asweep.
A tween walks in the snow in December. She only wishes she weren't really in a lake... At least it's not fake. Oh well, next year, there'll be a remake. Even a cake. A piece you can take..
A tween reflects on herself. She realizes she's only a figment of the imagination.
A tween goes to Paris. She gets some ice cream. She slurps it up.
A tween goes swimming. She reaches for what's to come.
Problem
So, is this your idea of fun? Let me just disclaim what you saw as me mad at people I don't want to name. I know it looks bad. Maybe, I meant it in some fun way...
FIX IT FIX IT FIX IT
Arrange something - payback!
and get all the people who are gonna ruin my life!
and get all the people who are gonna ruin my life!
Hey
I got another threat to associate a memory.
SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING
HOW WILL I FORGET FIX IT RIGHT NOW - AND I DON'T MEAN THAT YOU CAN. Well, we should be able to make some arrangements.
SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING
HOW WILL I FORGET FIX IT RIGHT NOW - AND I DON'T MEAN THAT YOU CAN. Well, we should be able to make some arrangements.
STOP
I got another threat.
My posts look like a stab in the heart. I guess Ellen DeGeneres's minions want me dead.
My posts look like a stab in the heart. I guess Ellen DeGeneres's minions want me dead.
STOP
I got another threat.
Help, I got mad, and now I have to worry about what others think of my future kids. I'm not gonna play around.
Help, I got mad, and now I have to worry about what others think of my future kids. I'm not gonna play around.
STOP
STOP! STOP MULTIPLYING THE NIGGER MESSAGES.
I couldn't log into Facebook the first time and I couldn't use my cell number.
I couldn't log into Facebook the first time and I couldn't use my cell number.
STOP
I'm getting some nigger messages from someone who wants to be stimulated.
HEY STOP GO AWAY SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING
Hey stop, this is from watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." I was trying to settle down! ':0
HEY STOP GO AWAY SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING
Hey stop, this is from watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." I was trying to settle down! ':0
STOP
THE POLICE FORUMS AREN'T WORKING
HEY MY NOSE
My aunt is a retired police.
My profile worked at first.
HEY MY NOSE
My aunt is a retired police.
My profile worked at first.
Problem
Ellen DeGeneres is causing people to get mad at each other. Come out and face the facts.
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Problem
So, I like watching Ellen DeGeneres, but I got mad and then I heard all these noises in my room and felt like my dad was touching me, and I really don't like that. Who did it? Why doesn't anyone care?
Stop
Why do you keep bothering me?
I can't get it all down. I even don't have security that what I do online won't be tampered with.
Look what happens to you from watching Ellen DeGeneres. You get attacked in private twisting things she preaches or reverberations you get from her messages. Hey, why did that happen?
Hey, let me be! I don't have to listen to you because you're wrong. You can't change my life and program me.
The thoughts I get from being a fan of her are making me vicious and feel violent. I just felt like I was being too close to my dad. What's the problem? I'm not gonna act like someone else is someone else. I have a different relationship with different people of different ages. Hey, stop! If you have a message, post it. Stop flinging stuff at me like you know what you're talking about. Hey, why did you say that? Now what? This is what I get from living in the world. Make sure you know that my life is torturous and this could happen to anyone. Oh, about different ages and types, people who are older tend to be different... They end up different ways. I'm not supposed to have to be too close to my dad, PERIOD!!!!
Oh, and don't like sever my relationship with him out of jealousy.
Hey, be quiet, now what? Hey, stop, what's in the picture, now? Nothing... ? Hey, stop. I don't care what you think in private. Stop attacking people you perv. Your values are not conducive. Stop making things up. If you don't really mean it. I'm still getting these messages through noises in my room and stuff.
I can't get it all down. I even don't have security that what I do online won't be tampered with.
Look what happens to you from watching Ellen DeGeneres. You get attacked in private twisting things she preaches or reverberations you get from her messages. Hey, why did that happen?
Hey, let me be! I don't have to listen to you because you're wrong. You can't change my life and program me.
The thoughts I get from being a fan of her are making me vicious and feel violent. I just felt like I was being too close to my dad. What's the problem? I'm not gonna act like someone else is someone else. I have a different relationship with different people of different ages. Hey, stop! If you have a message, post it. Stop flinging stuff at me like you know what you're talking about. Hey, why did you say that? Now what? This is what I get from living in the world. Make sure you know that my life is torturous and this could happen to anyone. Oh, about different ages and types, people who are older tend to be different... They end up different ways. I'm not supposed to have to be too close to my dad, PERIOD!!!!
Oh, and don't like sever my relationship with him out of jealousy.
Hey, be quiet, now what? Hey, stop, what's in the picture, now? Nothing... ? Hey, stop. I don't care what you think in private. Stop attacking people you perv. Your values are not conducive. Stop making things up. If you don't really mean it. I'm still getting these messages through noises in my room and stuff.
Website Update - My Life
Tuesday, 11-27-2012 - I keep getting bothered all day by little clicks and noises and how my computer loads.
Problems
I keep getting annoyed. I've been through a lot. When I get mad, bad things used to happen.
Being Difficult
Helena Bonham Carter leaves clues and wants us to be impressed and won't go out and say what she wants.
Also, I don't believe in when I get upset about something that something else bad has to happen to me because lots of people lose their temper.
I'm upset. I guess her having Russian Jewish merely puts her in line. I don't know "what" she did with the traits she supposedly got from her mom... There are rules. She just breaks some, it seems, around people like Burton.
Also, I don't believe in when I get upset about something that something else bad has to happen to me because lots of people lose their temper.
I'm upset. I guess her having Russian Jewish merely puts her in line. I don't know "what" she did with the traits she supposedly got from her mom... There are rules. She just breaks some, it seems, around people like Burton.
Problem
Why is everything such a big deal, the way people my age act? You aren't fixing the problems. Life is not getting more comfortable.
Problem
I'm getting the signs of messing up my future daughter's life.
Also, I'm being picked on for everything I do without a hint in a warning.
Also, I'm being picked on for everything I do without a hint in a warning.
Problem
I keep getting bad things tapped into me via sounds in my room to knock me in one way eventually.
Shopping
I think I need an air purifier.
$10 Mouse
$10 Keyboard
$30 Air Purifier link
up to @ $15 Good Nail Polish
$1 Nail Polish Remover
$1 Nail Scissors
$25 Contact Lenses
$3 Cleaning Spray
$7 Eyeliner
$5 Glitter Eye Shadow link NEW $5.00 @ Wal-Mart
$4 Waterproof Earplugs
$10 female things
$5 teen female chewable vitamins
$5 hair, skin, nails pills
$20 coat hanger
$5 deodorant
Subscriptions
$10 People (like an issue every week, I think)
$6 Flickr
$7 At Some Point Ad-Free for My Forum @ ProBoards
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$179
$10 Mouse
$10 Keyboard
$30 Air Purifier link
up to @ $15 Good Nail Polish
$1 Nail Polish Remover
$1 Nail Scissors
$25 Contact Lenses
$3 Cleaning Spray
$7 Eyeliner
$5 Glitter Eye Shadow link NEW $5.00 @ Wal-Mart
$4 Waterproof Earplugs
$10 female things
$5 teen female chewable vitamins
$5 hair, skin, nails pills
$20 coat hanger
$5 deodorant
Subscriptions
$10 People (like an issue every week, I think)
$6 Flickr
$7 At Some Point Ad-Free for My Forum @ ProBoards
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$179
Website Update - Advice
Tuesday, 11-27-2012 - Working out and taking a shower will make you feel better, quell you, and cool you down. It can take away bad stimulation like altogether. It deflates you and puffs you up and puts flush in your body, especially your cheeks|face. It cane make you seem much slimmer or more inflated. It cleans you and ceases irritation. I have been not shaving my legs to save time in the winter. Also, do your nails every day, take the polish off and repolish them. More expensive polish is better, and it's better to wear interesting colors to match your outfit for the next day. Also, wear a matching ponytail holder, even when you're in loungewear.
Monday, November 26, 2012
A Bad Yet Cozy Holiday at Home
Thanksgiving was neat.
I didn't watch the Macy's parade.
Sorry I got upset. I guess it was just the holidays. Shouldn't have gotten upset.
I didn't watch the Macy's parade.
Sorry I got upset. I guess it was just the holidays. Shouldn't have gotten upset.
I regret to inform you...
It's not a big deal, but I was knocked out this morning in the bathtub, well, I hit my forehead on the faucet in the tub in the dark because I like it in the dark. Also, I knocked my camera over. Something happened, but I fixed it. I had to tape it to the stand like a Nutcracker. :| My 1st YouTube channel was luvsacam008 I think. I deleted that so no one would check it again. I had forwards from my aunt.
Dream
Also, a tall Anne Hathaway came in and showed her black nails. I said mine were silver, I didn't work, and I paint them every day. I said I was thinking of someone with black nails, and it was her, though she didn't care, and I didn't understand why, at the time.
On IMDb, I was having fun and expressed I had an inner hatred for her thinking she was from somewhere else, early on. It was on the Alice in Wonderland boards.
On IMDb, I was having fun and expressed I had an inner hatred for her thinking she was from somewhere else, early on. It was on the Alice in Wonderland boards.
Problems
So, I've been feeling bad, lately. Things come up in the dark of my privacy. I guess I'll try to control it and feel better. The exercise and healthy food should help. I guess, next time, I need cold cuts and wheat bread and vegetables like lettuce, as well as maybe like honey mustard. I have some Dancing With the Stars workout videos. Some are dubbed exercise-based. I also started working on another Jillian Michaels DVD. It's more routine-based. I stopped because of my knees and I had done 2 workouts already online, for about 5-10 minutes each.
I don't know what's being squeezed out of me. I'm not happy that this is happening. There must be another way out.
...
Also, I've been watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and watching her online... I'm thinking of watching "True Blood" or maybe "Ghost Adventures" again. I miss "The Secret Circle." I also need to watch Jimmy Fallon. Blogging is something everyone should do. I like the forums I find. I need to find more. I also have that little basketball hoop. There must be other things I could do.
Hey, also, there's a small, hard pimple on my right pointer finger. I also felt my eyes kinda cross as an idea, kinda like a crazy, disgusting, perverted idea of, unfortunately, what you think of a black person presenting something. I've felt this since some time after starting to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" again. This didn't happen before. I think it's because of her audience. Hey, now, my left finger tips felt gooey kinda and thick like I had short nails. This shouldn't happen. So, I recommend you behave and take care of yourself and this stuff shouldn't happen. I guess it is good for older people and in certain ways for people born at certain times to deal with things that have come their way and that these things are supposedly unavoidable. There must be some way to avoid this, but I know people also think we have it coming...
I don't know what's being squeezed out of me. I'm not happy that this is happening. There must be another way out.
...
Also, I've been watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and watching her online... I'm thinking of watching "True Blood" or maybe "Ghost Adventures" again. I miss "The Secret Circle." I also need to watch Jimmy Fallon. Blogging is something everyone should do. I like the forums I find. I need to find more. I also have that little basketball hoop. There must be other things I could do.
Hey, also, there's a small, hard pimple on my right pointer finger. I also felt my eyes kinda cross as an idea, kinda like a crazy, disgusting, perverted idea of, unfortunately, what you think of a black person presenting something. I've felt this since some time after starting to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" again. This didn't happen before. I think it's because of her audience. Hey, now, my left finger tips felt gooey kinda and thick like I had short nails. This shouldn't happen. So, I recommend you behave and take care of yourself and this stuff shouldn't happen. I guess it is good for older people and in certain ways for people born at certain times to deal with things that have come their way and that these things are supposedly unavoidable. There must be some way to avoid this, but I know people also think we have it coming...
Dream
I was in this big, dark room in a place where a lot of people were around. There was a person who looked like someone I knew who was someone trying to look like Ellen DeGeneres. They kept carrying me around and putting their hand around my crotch and like lightly tap-pumping my butt. I was imagining a feeling. It was a bit weird. I was thinking of going all out for being very stimulated, on my own.
I was in a room with a laptop and typing a dream. I handed an old dream to the person. There were kids in the room. The person read it, and was like oh that's what I meant to do.
Then there was someone dressed up with a small small head and a big big body, like a robot. They put their hands on mine, and I let out a little energy. They felt a bounce and hearts reached its eyes. We danced, and now I forget what we sang. The other person was upset yet indicated I deal with my problems.
So, no, it didn't feel good. It wasn't a strong feeling. The person indicated they were going to. When I tried to stimulate myself, I was unable to. Also, what disturbed me was I went up to the person and imagined they put their arm around my back and walked with me and then I leaped to their side and then got off thinking it was tacky. Now, that reminds me of a girl I saw in Washington, D.C.
I had a dream before this but went to the bathroom and never remembered or pretty much forgot.
I was in a room with a laptop and typing a dream. I handed an old dream to the person. There were kids in the room. The person read it, and was like oh that's what I meant to do.
Then there was someone dressed up with a small small head and a big big body, like a robot. They put their hands on mine, and I let out a little energy. They felt a bounce and hearts reached its eyes. We danced, and now I forget what we sang. The other person was upset yet indicated I deal with my problems.
So, no, it didn't feel good. It wasn't a strong feeling. The person indicated they were going to. When I tried to stimulate myself, I was unable to. Also, what disturbed me was I went up to the person and imagined they put their arm around my back and walked with me and then I leaped to their side and then got off thinking it was tacky. Now, that reminds me of a girl I saw in Washington, D.C.
I had a dream before this but went to the bathroom and never remembered or pretty much forgot.
What I Wish I Did
Year 1
1 Freshman Orientation | Civics
2 Biology I H
3 English II G
4 Geometry G
5 PE I
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing
Year 2
1 World History
2 Biology II
3 English III G
4 Algebra II G
5 Advanced Math APG
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing
Year 3
1 English II G
2 Calculus APG
3 PE II | Health
4 Free Enterprise |
5 Talented Theater
6 Talented Music - Singing
7
College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Film
Graduate and work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.
1 Freshman Orientation | Civics
2 Biology I H
3 English II G
4 Geometry G
5 PE I
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing
Year 2
1 World History
2 Biology II
3 English III G
4 Algebra II G
5 Advanced Math APG
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing
Year 3
1 English II G
2 Calculus APG
3 PE II | Health
4 Free Enterprise |
5 Talented Theater
6 Talented Music - Singing
7
College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Film
Graduate and work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.
Website Update - Advice
Monday, 11-26-2012 - I read in Diet for Dancers that dancers like need to go for really long walks or do like exercise for a long time nonstop, probably that would then be less strenuous.
Something
For some reason, I have a sensitive pimple on the middle of my stomach. It makes me feel the effects of when I felt the waitress like thrown at me, my stomach, and when I tapped it this time it bubbled in a thick way around my egg sack. I think it was set up. Not sure.
Pizza
I had the Domino's my dad elected to get me. It's giving me that funny feeling, of that waitress, like in my stomach are. I feel like I'm in a mental hospital and am tired from complaining online.
So, he got thinner pizza and the cheese bread I like and the lava cakes, which I didn't have, yet. That's also been connected to other ideas...
Now, my stomach is bloated, even though I've been exercising. Maybe, I shouldn't have had the pizza...
So, he got thinner pizza and the cheese bread I like and the lava cakes, which I didn't have, yet. That's also been connected to other ideas...
Now, my stomach is bloated, even though I've been exercising. Maybe, I shouldn't have had the pizza...
Edit
I linked the Education tag.
Also, I had the profile christina-barrett-1 on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" website before.
Also, I had the profile christina-barrett-1 on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" website before.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Problem
Stop playing around with me and broadcasting my life. I'm not sure why this happened. Guess it's not safe to post anywhere.
Problem
I just got the idea that things are supposedly all being set up intelligently around me to stimulate others.
Problem
Why is life so lame since my interest in Ellen DeGeneres and moreover my dad with the n word thing. Someone needs to put an end to him.
Problem
Can you leave me alone? I got the message that dirty Americans wish to eat away at people who want pure, full heritage from Europe.
Problem
Why is everything I do a bad message from someone I care about or who is nice, a good person, I don't interact with in person?
Problem
I'm getting perverted, messed up messages from Ellen DeGeneres, like that she wants to hurt people I know, like my dad, because of my suffering of messages I get that people pretend are from her. I bet it's someone trying to get attention. I can talk about it. Anyone agree she's just wasting time or whoever did that? I don't have time to fix what I write all the time, agree? It's about what you mean, but it's also about other things. Why do we have to say this when we're busy? Oh, and don't overreact to some things I say, just for the fun of it. You can't hurt me. You shouldn't. I wonder what I can do to stop you and to stop you from bothering me when I feel good.
Problem
Every time I get mad at being set up, I get a weird message that's like Ellen DeGeneres. It happens.
I just got another weird message about something in private about my breasts.
I just got another weird message about something in private about my breasts.
Problem
My dad won't leave me alone. He's leaving the pizza out for me to eat later. Like I said before, I didn't order it. I just had some, yesterday. My parents were at a wedding. My dad was filming it!
Problem
What's going on with the idea that if something bad happens after someone good comes into the picture that it's bad? I mean the good person should be hurt. I get in forced situations, and I get mad when I'm attacked when I'm alone and have weird mechanisms in my head, like I can't think how I used to nor any better, for some reason. Sure, it would reach the knowledge of others.
STOP
My dad won't stop coming in my room giving me messages. I'm changing my account at "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."
He came in to tell me he got the cockroach. I'm getting the idea of people intruding my life, like beasts.
Hey, stop, why is this topic on Ellen DeGeneres? What's going on?
He came in to tell me he got the cockroach. I'm getting the idea of people intruding my life, like beasts.
Hey, stop, why is this topic on Ellen DeGeneres? What's going on?
Problem
I got another "message" about being poor and rich.
These messages are not stopping. I say something, and I get talked back to, if not now, later, I guess. Why doesn't anyone care?
Hey, stop defending my dad. He's mean to me. Hey, stop. I'm getting more signs. I got the sign of something popping. My dad popped some things earlier. Hey, once I thought of "Poppins," when he was mean to me.
Someone get this to stop. Answer. Stop acting like I don't matter.
Stop wasting my time and having me go through these things to send only me messages.
These messages are not stopping. I say something, and I get talked back to, if not now, later, I guess. Why doesn't anyone care?
Hey, stop defending my dad. He's mean to me. Hey, stop. I'm getting more signs. I got the sign of something popping. My dad popped some things earlier. Hey, once I thought of "Poppins," when he was mean to me.
Someone get this to stop. Answer. Stop acting like I don't matter.
Stop wasting my time and having me go through these things to send only me messages.
Problem
I'm getting weird messages in my room that others can't tap into because I like to post all the ways I'm bothered online.
Problem
So, how you a gonna solve the problem about my dad being hurt all the time? Just sorta sit here and attack me like my dad will attack you? THIS NEEDS TO STOP.
Oh, as I was walking out of my room, this time, my dad opened the door and came in and said he got pizza. I think he got upset at my brother for the idea I might get more vitamins, instead of the ones I had from before that sometimes he takes. I'm taking them now, waiting until I get my money next month...
I just had pizza. I got the bad feeling that waiter was in me when I had it yesterday. I wa pumping out said feeling.
Also, I was reading Ellen DeGeneres's e-mail she sends out. :|
Well, I dunno. I don't want pizza, again. Hm, also, he filmed a wedding yesterday or took pictures for it.
So, this isn't on my website, but my dad gave me pizza before and I didn't look as sorta stretched out, Hot Pockets.
Oh, as I was walking out of my room, this time, my dad opened the door and came in and said he got pizza. I think he got upset at my brother for the idea I might get more vitamins, instead of the ones I had from before that sometimes he takes. I'm taking them now, waiting until I get my money next month...
I just had pizza. I got the bad feeling that waiter was in me when I had it yesterday. I wa pumping out said feeling.
Also, I was reading Ellen DeGeneres's e-mail she sends out. :|
Well, I dunno. I don't want pizza, again. Hm, also, he filmed a wedding yesterday or took pictures for it.
So, this isn't on my website, but my dad gave me pizza before and I didn't look as sorta stretched out, Hot Pockets.
Who You Hang out With
So, if you're mean to me, I can hang out with someone else and hope the world doesn't let you say bad things about me. I realized that it'd make you feel guilty to think bad thoughts about me. We're definitely open to social mingling.
Stop
Stop bothering me. I don't need things to happen to make sure they're okay that they won't happen any worse. I know that's the tacky "fantasy" that's going around for how I will ultimately and supposedly in a way others will be attacked.
It seems when I post something, something else happens to me in private and I blog about it, often, lately, more than I should, which maybe I shouldn't have to, at all.
It seems when I post something, something else happens to me in private and I blog about it, often, lately, more than I should, which maybe I shouldn't have to, at all.
Attacked Some
I've been attacked a bit nonstop since waking up and insulted.
They could make noises come up in my ear over even loud music, which I don't want to turn on.
I think they're chasing the wrong person.
They could make noises come up in my ear over even loud music, which I don't want to turn on.
I think they're chasing the wrong person.
Stop
Stop acting like I need to listen to my dad. I'm already too old to all of a sudden need to listen to my dad. What about my mom? What's your problem?
And it's all weird little things.
Stop acting suggestive like I'm guilty. If you want to materialize that thought to the world, post it in your blog.
Stop being so critical of my thoughts if you make bad ideas hit me and are watching me all the time in private and telling people what I do and think.
I can post about my experiences on my blog, if I'm civil. I'm not sure what your problem is... That I posted an alluding to it? I think you're just pretending. If it doesn't matter, then I'll do it because it'll help me.
... Okay, bye, this is no fun.
Every time something happens, you don't have anything else to do. I'm forgetting it.
And it's all weird little things.
Stop acting suggestive like I'm guilty. If you want to materialize that thought to the world, post it in your blog.
Stop being so critical of my thoughts if you make bad ideas hit me and are watching me all the time in private and telling people what I do and think.
I can post about my experiences on my blog, if I'm civil. I'm not sure what your problem is... That I posted an alluding to it? I think you're just pretending. If it doesn't matter, then I'll do it because it'll help me.
... Okay, bye, this is no fun.
Every time something happens, you don't have anything else to do. I'm forgetting it.
Stop
I'm getting weird noises in my room getting mad about me getting mad. I explained what happened, and sometimes these thoughts just materialize because of the nature of my world. Blame my world. And don't hurt people in the wrong way and do certain things to the wrong people.
I'm getting more messages, too, and I can't write them all down. As I write them down, I guess I get more. If you do this, shouldn't you stop? Maybe, you should have stopped, anyway. I don't have to feel bad for you, like this.
I'm getting more messages, too, and I can't write them all down. As I write them down, I guess I get more. If you do this, shouldn't you stop? Maybe, you should have stopped, anyway. I don't have to feel bad for you, like this.
Dream
I was at church in choir. The choir director was at the organ. I had the feeling she'd put her arm around my back as we talked. My friend was there with another friend, both older in the same class but not where I lived then. They were arguing like I was before but more acutely, and I told her after she went over to reprimand them and sat down and said some things. I talked to a teacher in the choir, and she was stern about me. We sang, and I had trouble sounding loud. In the end, finally I could sound somewhat celestial. There were a bunch of lowly tribal people from Africa at the front of the church, which was more bright and partly white. We noticed the ceiling above them, which was like big round stones was gone. They came by us, though we were in a loft before. I noticed one tall, thin man who looked more Jewish or Middle Eastern. He was talking about having a Jewish dad, like it was an official definition of being Jewish, in an enlightening way. He said, if your dad's dad and mom both had Jewish then you're "the one" and followed forward thinking about it.
Oh, before that, we were drawing people for like a job. I sketched a girl well in 15 seconds, the 2nd one. I went to see her at breakfast, and she and her friend were there. She gave me the picture back, like I was dirty. She was White but was dark with a kinda African smooth but shapely face, like a White person. So, I left them and forget what else happened. It was kind of a more dilapidated, dirty situation.
Oh, before that, we were drawing people for like a job. I sketched a girl well in 15 seconds, the 2nd one. I went to see her at breakfast, and she and her friend were there. She gave me the picture back, like I was dirty. She was White but was dark with a kinda African smooth but shapely face, like a White person. So, I left them and forget what else happened. It was kind of a more dilapidated, dirty situation.
Problem
So, I deal with my frustrations. I can see things coming and I turn ideas over.
Upset things are happening, but when I'm not at peace I get upset.
Upset things are happening, but when I'm not at peace I get upset.
Problem
I was leaving my bathroom and heard a bunch of noises. Because I had a light on, the deodoring thing.
STOP
NOW WHAT NOTHING MATTERS - I DON'T WANT TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH YOU I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE UP TO
LOOK YOU ALREADY MADE A BIG DEAL OUT IF IT LIKE IT WAS GOOD - GO TELL THE WORLD YOURSELF BUT NO DON'T SPREAD IT AND QUIT PICKING ON ME TRYING TO BLOG
I'M TIRED OF YOUR PERVERTED GAMES
LOOK YOU ALREADY MADE A BIG DEAL OUT IF IT LIKE IT WAS GOOD - GO TELL THE WORLD YOURSELF BUT NO DON'T SPREAD IT AND QUIT PICKING ON ME TRYING TO BLOG
I'M TIRED OF YOUR PERVERTED GAMES
STOP
Stop kidding like I'm perverted. I just felt disconnected because of your messages about my grandma. I don't feel as physical. I was filled with something I didn't want to be filled with, and now I'm not as immense. Stop. You're torturing me and laughing.
STOP LEAVE ME ALONE ABOUT MY GRANDMA IN A BAD WAY I'M MY OWN PERSON AND HAVE BEEN YOU MEAN PEOPLE I DON'T LIKE MY FAMILY NOR EVERYONE IN CERTAIN WAYS AND STOP ACTING LIKE I'M WEIRD WHEN I PAUSE WHEN TYPE
STOP LEAVE ME ALONE ABOUT MY GRANDMA IN A BAD WAY I'M MY OWN PERSON AND HAVE BEEN YOU MEAN PEOPLE I DON'T LIKE MY FAMILY NOR EVERYONE IN CERTAIN WAYS AND STOP ACTING LIKE I'M WEIRD WHEN I PAUSE WHEN TYPE
STOP
STOP WITH THE RACIST MESSAGES THAT DON'T MAKE SENSE THAT AREN'T RIGHT THAT REALLY ARE EASILY KNOWN TO BE UNTRUE FROM TIM BURTON THAT I JUST GOT THIS RARE TIME OUT OF WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON.
WHAT AM I GONNA DO NOW THAT CAPS DON'T MEAN ANYTHING?
WHAT AM I GONNA DO NOW THAT CAPS DON'T MEAN ANYTHING?
STOP
Stop with the weird faint noises of people torturing each other when you make me mad|upset.
Stop! I just got another suggestion! I said stop! Answer! I SAID STOP.
STOP MAKING FUN OF ME!
Hey, I said stop. You're using my energy. I said STOP. GO AWAY.
Stop! I just got another suggestion! I said stop! Answer! I SAID STOP.
STOP MAKING FUN OF ME!
Hey, I said stop. You're using my energy. I said STOP. GO AWAY.
Problem
Leave me alone since the n word thing. You're using my energy. I just got a bad suggestion, that I was bad to my grandma. That I can't get away from her.
Also, my dad is predicting all these things I will say and it's sick. He's spying on me in my room. Get him to stop. What's going on! Who'd agree to look at me in my room?
Also, my dad is predicting all these things I will say and it's sick. He's spying on me in my room. Get him to stop. What's going on! Who'd agree to look at me in my room?
Bad Sense of Humor
What do you really think of Ellen DeGeneres's sense of humor? ':{
I mean naughty sense of humor, like it matters now.
I mean naughty sense of humor, like it matters now.
Finished Eating Leftovers
Hunk of Beef & Rather Plain Pasta Nested Under It
Soup (Tomato Based)
Carrots (No More Ranch Left)
Soup (Tomato Based)
Carrots (No More Ranch Left)
Stop!
Now, I felt my right finger break up into little pieces. Someone get Ellen DeGeneres. It's her fault!
GET OUT
Get out of my life, quit making fun of me like you have any say in me.
And quit bothering me more for not describing things like a freak. I'm from America.
And quit bothering me more for not describing things like a freak. I'm from America.
Problem
I grew up very unguided and very innocent, and all of a sudden since college and moreover the n word thing my dad has been acting like I "need" discipline from others. Don't do it. Let him play with himself. What's your problem? I don't like you. Not if you're like that. 8^|
STOP
Ellen DeGeneres may be meaner than me, but she isn't meaner than most people. Nice people are presentable or upfront. They all tend to blend in in the crowd, but I wouldn't dwell on it...
STOP
WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM. I DON'T HAVE TO ALWAYS KEEP UP WITH ELLEN DEGENERES AND KEEP TABS ON HER ... IN SOME WAY I'M TALKING ABOUT. NO I'M NOT GAY IN THE WAY THAT MEANS YOU'RE BAD. IN FACT, I AM KEEPING UP WITH HER, SINCE 2012. ':{
What bloody way will I fall into sleep this day?
What bloody way will I fall into sleep this day?
The Benefits of Ballet and Dance Exposure
Ballet fixed my scoliosis. I looked good after I did softball, too. I didn't get to do as much dance as I wanted. I quit to get taller and to get into film. It took years, and, then, I watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."
DANCE IS BAD
So, a lot of girls actually quit dancing in high school.
I suggest that parents take their kids out of ballet, right away. Dance is all bad. We need to eat.
I suggest that parents take their kids out of ballet, right away. Dance is all bad. We need to eat.
What I Should Have Done
Year 1
1 English II G
2 Geometry G
3 Biology I H
4 Freshman Orientation | Civics
5 JROTC I
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing
Year 2
1 English III APG
2 Algebra II APG
3 Biology II
4 World History
5 JROTC II
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing
Year 3
1 English IV APG
2 American History H
3 Free Enterprise | Health
4 Talented Theater
5 Talented Music - Singing
6
7
College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Required Minor in Film
When I took American History, it was really scary I was told to leave, we all were, unless we were here to train for the AP test, specifically, like not as Gifted students, like it was gonna be extra work. Also, I never took non-AP English in high school that was just Gifted. I took Honors my 1st year.
Also, when I went to Loyola, I didn't chose to notice the Film minor I now see there. It says it was there in 2003-2005. I went 2004.
So, I'd take ...
Hey, they have neat advanced courses. link
So, I'm trying to figure out how I could graduate in 3 years. It'd be 6 courses a semester and 3 courses over the summer, I think. I don't think it'd work out.
1 English II G
2 Geometry G
3 Biology I H
4 Freshman Orientation | Civics
5 JROTC I
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing
Year 2
1 English III APG
2 Algebra II APG
3 Biology II
4 World History
5 JROTC II
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing
Year 3
1 English IV APG
2 American History H
3 Free Enterprise | Health
4 Talented Theater
5 Talented Music - Singing
6
7
College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Required Minor in Film
When I took American History, it was really scary I was told to leave, we all were, unless we were here to train for the AP test, specifically, like not as Gifted students, like it was gonna be extra work. Also, I never took non-AP English in high school that was just Gifted. I took Honors my 1st year.
Also, when I went to Loyola, I didn't chose to notice the Film minor I now see there. It says it was there in 2003-2005. I went 2004.
So, I'd take ...
Hey, they have neat advanced courses. link
So, I'm trying to figure out how I could graduate in 3 years. It'd be 6 courses a semester and 3 courses over the summer, I think. I don't think it'd work out.
Haunted With Bad Thoughts
Bad ideas have been haunting me, but some ideas were planted in my head. Well, at least it seems like some of these sounds are real and subtle.
I'm trying to think of people I talk to who are afraid to be nice to me.
I'm trying to think of people I talk to who are afraid to be nice to me.
Problem
I'm tired of just not thinking because of Tim Burton. People like him because he's technically all white.
STOP
I'm tired of suffering because of the weaknesses privately of Ellen DeGeneres. Stop. Why don't you come out and admit it like you probably used to? I don't want your weaknesses. Why don't you give it to someone else.
Look, stop fantasizing. Explain yourself! Somebody stop this foolishness that has commenced because of the release of Johnny Depp.
Look, stop fantasizing. Explain yourself! Somebody stop this foolishness that has commenced because of the release of Johnny Depp.
STOP
STOP YOU PERVERTED PEOPLE INTRUDING MY PRIVACY AND MAKING DISGUSTING FANTASIES ABOUT PEOPLE.
THEY'RE MAKING WILD FANTASIES IN PLEASURE LIKE PERVERTED PEOPLE. ABOUT PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT. AND NOTHING IS GONNA HAPPEN TO THEM.
THEY'RE SUGGESTING I DON'T MATTER AND THAT I DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHERS FEEL. THEY'RE HURTING PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT ME.
STOP, STOP BEING RACIST. STOP SAYING I DID SOMETHING WRONG. I'M HAVING TROUBLE COMMUNICATING, AND THIS IS IMPORTANT.
You obviously think your such a know-it-all about what you've said... Coming up on me like I don't matter. STOP! I don't believe this is necessary.
You all submit to this nasty perversion and claim you don't when I finally do see your face!
THEY'RE MAKING WILD FANTASIES IN PLEASURE LIKE PERVERTED PEOPLE. ABOUT PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT. AND NOTHING IS GONNA HAPPEN TO THEM.
THEY'RE SUGGESTING I DON'T MATTER AND THAT I DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHERS FEEL. THEY'RE HURTING PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT ME.
STOP, STOP BEING RACIST. STOP SAYING I DID SOMETHING WRONG. I'M HAVING TROUBLE COMMUNICATING, AND THIS IS IMPORTANT.
You obviously think your such a know-it-all about what you've said... Coming up on me like I don't matter. STOP! I don't believe this is necessary.
You all submit to this nasty perversion and claim you don't when I finally do see your face!
Bad Messages Transmitted
I shouldn't have to go through things people might suggest. That just disproves their worth. :p Watch, I'm gonna get tailed for saying someone is hurting me and because I'm not technically all White American or whatever.
Rubbing Things In
Why does Tim Burton want to rub in everything my dad suggests?
Also, they get to be presentable around each other. Ever since I went to the mental hospital, things have been bad. I don't know who caused it nor why I went, I guess because of that weird American History class. You know, my life was really good, a bit harsh but not really. Not sure what got into me.
I had to post my race online, also because it was polite. I mean, I had an unfair opportunity, and it should be my mom's responsibility. I feel that people think I'm silly because they know I've taken psychiatric pills and I'm not technically all White American or whatever. I don't want to be totally set up in some elaborate fashion and be hard to function.
STOP BOTHERING ME. WITH YOUR COMPLEX MESSED UP IDEAS. YOU JUST SPRAYED IT ON MY PRECIOUS STUFF. IDEOLOGICALLY. LOOK, QUIT. STOP ACTING LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG. I JUST SAID QUIT.
Tim Burton is racist and mean just because of the n word thing. He's trying to say my dad is bad, but he has no reason.
Also, they get to be presentable around each other. Ever since I went to the mental hospital, things have been bad. I don't know who caused it nor why I went, I guess because of that weird American History class. You know, my life was really good, a bit harsh but not really. Not sure what got into me.
I had to post my race online, also because it was polite. I mean, I had an unfair opportunity, and it should be my mom's responsibility. I feel that people think I'm silly because they know I've taken psychiatric pills and I'm not technically all White American or whatever. I don't want to be totally set up in some elaborate fashion and be hard to function.
STOP BOTHERING ME. WITH YOUR COMPLEX MESSED UP IDEAS. YOU JUST SPRAYED IT ON MY PRECIOUS STUFF. IDEOLOGICALLY. LOOK, QUIT. STOP ACTING LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG. I JUST SAID QUIT.
Tim Burton is racist and mean just because of the n word thing. He's trying to say my dad is bad, but he has no reason.
Admitting "Weird Things"
I'm tired of living antsy on the brink of you "admitting" weird things.
I don't need you to act like I think I'm guilty when I know I'm not just to test me.
I don't need you to act like I think I'm guilty when I know I'm not just to test me.
Stimulating for Perversion Undue
So, I see my dad is trying to stimulate me for what I did that I wasn't able to calculate. He wants to blame my mom, who is not Caucasian|White, when she blames that it's because I'm related to my dad. My dad is okay with that and treats me differently, like I'm not like either of them nor anyone else nor that I am accepting, in a way, because it's a virtue...
People Around Orlando
When I was at the mall, I was talking, and some boys, probably Spanish, who seemed small and tall, sounded like they gave all in and said something that sounded like a bad word because I was enjoying conversation with my dad, who doesn't want me to plan things out neatly. Other people aren't helping my situation at home. Some people say things, and no one helps. I am left with what's right and wrong and knowing my needs are unmet. Later, I realize I "don't have" to do some things.
So, then I ate out with my dad, and he made me feel like I had to have the waitress stimulate me in my stomach and probably womb. Well, I had it coming and have forgotten about it. I was feeling it, and it did make me feel weird in a little way. It made my stomach pump for the first time like that, at least since I could ever remember since I lost it in 2005, thinking my life became a recorded experiment and that supposedly I had been suffering undue things, which I believe still and feel I have not received my reward. Another time, though, I felt my head pump in a good way, though I fear it will spin. It's just that my eye spun before for months, so maybe I'm done spinning or something, at least for now, here. :| I mean, it's hard to spin. I've been struggling.
So, then I ate out with my dad, and he made me feel like I had to have the waitress stimulate me in my stomach and probably womb. Well, I had it coming and have forgotten about it. I was feeling it, and it did make me feel weird in a little way. It made my stomach pump for the first time like that, at least since I could ever remember since I lost it in 2005, thinking my life became a recorded experiment and that supposedly I had been suffering undue things, which I believe still and feel I have not received my reward. Another time, though, I felt my head pump in a good way, though I fear it will spin. It's just that my eye spun before for months, so maybe I'm done spinning or something, at least for now, here. :| I mean, it's hard to spin. I've been struggling.
Weird Stimulation That's Bad, Most Decidedly
Why does my dad and others keep barking at things like they are suggestions of what others will do now, trying to stimulate others 24-7, like it has to happen?
What will we do now that the activities have commenced? Like stimulating in a weird, seemingly "bad" way really people. Why do people do that? Is it an L.A. thing? This wasn't the program, before. It's happened since the n word thing. Before, it just seemed to "happen," wasn't like something that was bound to occur. Not like some thing you're waiting for that could happen for some reason. I might be different, but that's just who I am. We are not all the same, and we shouldn't ruin ourselves trying to all be the same, like everyone else. People are just different. I guess I can't really look up to anyone because they're busy being stimulated in weird ways in ways I don't like by certain people. I don't even understand the relationship certain people claim to have had with certain people of different generations.
As to the title, we aren't sure who to blame all for the deeds that were done in the stimulating factor. :p
What will we do now that the activities have commenced? Like stimulating in a weird, seemingly "bad" way really people. Why do people do that? Is it an L.A. thing? This wasn't the program, before. It's happened since the n word thing. Before, it just seemed to "happen," wasn't like something that was bound to occur. Not like some thing you're waiting for that could happen for some reason. I might be different, but that's just who I am. We are not all the same, and we shouldn't ruin ourselves trying to all be the same, like everyone else. People are just different. I guess I can't really look up to anyone because they're busy being stimulated in weird ways in ways I don't like by certain people. I don't even understand the relationship certain people claim to have had with certain people of different generations.
As to the title, we aren't sure who to blame all for the deeds that were done in the stimulating factor. :p
Shower
Clean, ready for bed. :| Have some dry grain, plain, tasteless flat cracker stuff if I get hungry and some yummy tummy gummy bears.
Might go lie down, soon. ;0
Might go lie down, soon. ;0
Imperfection
Why am I not considered very perfect, now? Is it because I had problems with energy when I moved to the New Orleans area? I wasn't tall anymore and got more blubbery.
I just feel that things are a bit inconvenient, socially. I don't really know what I'm going through. I mean, I understand some of the reasoning, yes. I wouldn't want to do that to my kids nor would I think it proper to do to anyone else. I assume most people have a vanguard against these things, or some such...
I just feel that things are a bit inconvenient, socially. I don't really know what I'm going through. I mean, I understand some of the reasoning, yes. I wouldn't want to do that to my kids nor would I think it proper to do to anyone else. I assume most people have a vanguard against these things, or some such...
Website Update - Notes to Know
I also changed the font on this page to Medium.
Sunday, 2012-11-25 - A reply option I had on an old blog I remember was "nurturing" or "scrumdiddlyumptious." I think it was the one marked 2012-11-25-1.
Sunday, 2012-11-25 - A reply option I had on an old blog I remember was "nurturing" or "scrumdiddlyumptious." I think it was the one marked 2012-11-25-1.
Website Update - Advice
Just pick the nail polish off your skin. When you paint your nails with expensive nail polish, it comes off your skin, mostly, at least with some. Apply more than 1 coat; I've always used 1 or 2. I've never tried 3 that I remember on nail polish that was opaque enough. If you use less expensive nail polish, I think you just pick at the nail polish that gets on your skin and that it comes off your skin on its own after a day.
Ruined
Since my female thing is ruined... what do you think now that we're pretty sure it was given to me as individual medicine secretly? I shouldn't have taken the medicine. Also, my life was really bad before I went to the mental hospital, I can see from the old YouTube videos.
Help!
I am being threatened and so are other people!
HEY, THERE'S A WARBLING RINGING IN MY EAR! I have my ear plugs in and my noisemaker on.
LEAVE ME ALONE! YOU ALL THINK YOU DESERVE STUFF IN LIFE AND NOT ME?
LEAVE ME ALONE. I WANT MY LIFE.
People are being dishonest on their opinion of me, and then I am told the clicks in my room are associated with them under all control of my dad, which I don't like.
HEY, THERE'S A WARBLING RINGING IN MY EAR! I have my ear plugs in and my noisemaker on.
LEAVE ME ALONE! YOU ALL THINK YOU DESERVE STUFF IN LIFE AND NOT ME?
LEAVE ME ALONE. I WANT MY LIFE.
People are being dishonest on their opinion of me, and then I am told the clicks in my room are associated with them under all control of my dad, which I don't like.
Getting Attention
So, is it that I shouldn't feel some things or some things using certain people?
Why would I just let be when it's an issue, like I don't want to be mushy and say whatever it is, I'd like attention.
Why would I just let be when it's an issue, like I don't want to be mushy and say whatever it is, I'd like attention.
Website Edit
I added my last blog at the end of the section of the list of blogs. I also formatted the spacing that I found to be off, rather strangely...
link
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People Update
I added a new person to the People tab: The Last Verista.
In case you already looked, I just edited it a few times. =D
In case you already looked, I just edited it a few times. =D
Website Update - Advice
Sunday, 11-25-2012 - I like to wait longer to exercise again so I can get in the maximum rest and work it off the best, later.
Sunday, 11-25-2012 - I go to the bathroom a lot, including when I am out, like every hour.
Sunday, 11-25-2012 - I go to the bathroom a lot, including when I am out, like every hour.
Blogging While I Was Out
I got the vision of someone fumbling sealing up my future daughter like with a flat, thick, light suction.
I also got the message that I'm all out, like I decided to be a movie star, like my posts online literally are all over and make no sense.
Also, I'm worried I'll be bombarded with more.
PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE! YOU'RE THE ONES WITH THE PROBLEM! YOU'VE BEEIN SINNING AGAINST ME!
Look, just because I had problems does not mean I was a bad person. I grew up indoors, not living in harm's way.
Please, leave people I know alone. I don't care about your problems. I don't believe you know how to handle things that you pay attention to and find out about.
Oh, look, other people live in the comfort of their homes not bombarded by this kind of stuff. I am accomplished, and you took away what I earned.
STOP. STOP PUSHING PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. STOP. SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING. QUIT MAKING FUN OF ME.
What's wrong with Ellen DeGeneres? So, now, it's supposedly not her fault. Why does Britney Spears, Johnny Depp, and Tim Burton get away with all that they do with their heritage?
It looks like people won't leave me alone for my problems, racially and money-wise.
I also got the message that I'm all out, like I decided to be a movie star, like my posts online literally are all over and make no sense.
Also, I'm worried I'll be bombarded with more.
PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE! YOU'RE THE ONES WITH THE PROBLEM! YOU'VE BEEIN SINNING AGAINST ME!
Look, just because I had problems does not mean I was a bad person. I grew up indoors, not living in harm's way.
Please, leave people I know alone. I don't care about your problems. I don't believe you know how to handle things that you pay attention to and find out about.
Oh, look, other people live in the comfort of their homes not bombarded by this kind of stuff. I am accomplished, and you took away what I earned.
STOP. STOP PUSHING PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. STOP. SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING. QUIT MAKING FUN OF ME.
What's wrong with Ellen DeGeneres? So, now, it's supposedly not her fault. Why does Britney Spears, Johnny Depp, and Tim Burton get away with all that they do with their heritage?
It looks like people won't leave me alone for my problems, racially and money-wise.
tags
Britney Spears,
Ellen DeGeneres,
Johnny Depp,
Money,
Parenting,
Problems,
Race,
Tim Burton
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